I am bringing up this issue here because I don’t trust the environment I live and the people I co-habit with. They would open up the bible for me than tell me some truth I need to hear or advise me to go for brain evaluation. I am well ok.
I’ve been an atheist for some years now, but due to beliefs of people around, I make it a closed affair. Though I raised questions which theists always fail to convincingly answer, I still agree with them that there is god.
I live in this denial of who I am just to satisfy my loved ones and make them happy. They see atheist as a mad man.
All these years, this is what I battle inside of me, but what choice do I have than just to play along? I don’t wanna lose loved ones ’cause of my belief.
I muster some courage and decided to reveal my real self to my girlfriend who is also religious. She’s told me her love for me is unconditional and I tried to believe her.
She went berserk when I told her am an atheist… She wouldn’t just believe it. Since then, she’s been looking at me like I’m under some spell.
I’m losing her and I don’t ever wanna lose her. If for anything, not because I don’t believe there is God who looks by while toddlers die.
